Confronting Death, Finding Renewal
The emphatic message of the High Holidays: Change is possible.
The first step is to become conscious of one's life, to overcome the routines that block the capacity to evaluate, correct, and change. Setting aside time in Elul [the month preceding the High Holidays] or during the High Holy Days is the beginning of liberation. It is a time for families to sit down together, for single individuals and for husbands and wives alike to do an inventory and accounting of the year that has passed in their lives. It is a time to express dissatisfaction and to weigh or gather the resources for change. If there has been no time for introspection all year, then it must be found in this period.
Here is where the consciousness of death plays a vital role. The shock of death reminds us that time is short--too short--to waste, too short to let pride and despair trap one in a life pattern with little in it to savor or respect. The very awareness of mortality suddenly puts life into bold relief. No aspect of life can be taken for granted; no feature of one's personal way is either eternal or absolutely necessary. Thus, one can review, fine-tune, or alter with a new consciousness of alternatives.
The most dramatic expression of this concept is on Yom Kippur day, when every possible occupation or distraction is suspended; even the life processes of eating and sexuality are stopped. It is as if all of life is stopped and now can be chosen anew.
The descent into death also energizes the life forces. Both the body and the psyche revolt against non-being by reasserting life. This is as true for community as it is for the psyche. It is no accident that the generation of the Holocaust is the same generation that established the State of Israel. Only those who have tasted degradation can fully savor the urgency of life and the goodness of dignity in this generation. And, like a blind person whose sight is restored, after the gloom of Yom Kippur people find the world a riot of color, an outburst of dazzling variety.
"The unexamined life is not worth living," said Socrates. "To live the unexamined life is not really living" would be the Torah's version. People stay alive by being reborn. When rebirth stops, the individual will soon be dead. If you are the same as you were last year, you have died a little in the interim.
The promise of divine help and the sustenance of a community of life that has been reborn repeatedly strengthen personal efforts to renew the self. In Jewish tradition, the concept of ritual impurity is identified with routinization. The ultimate impurity is death, which is the ultimate routine. Going to mikvah [the ritual bath] and the symbolic washing of hands are rituals that externalize the drive to be reborn. The Jewish tradition sees sin as the enemy of life. The despair of guilt is the evil force that tells people. they cannot change or that they cannot perfect the world. Therefore, repentance is the process of these weeks, but rebirth and renewal are the substance.
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